The World is Quiet Here

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

back to livejournal.

yeap i wen tback to livejournal. tried to customize it a bit but found out, livejournal isn't a as customizable. it's the only reason i came here but yea. go HERE

posted@5:12 PM by:Agent J:

Friday, December 24, 2004

Tis the season to be lonely

So where have i been? well i been going crazy with video games. I decided to buy myself a gift so I went and bought Smackdown vs. Raw and then since the video game ma bought Trav wouldn't run on the computer we took it back and got another game that wouldn't run so she took it back again and they said that as long as it comes from electronics, she can exchange it so she got Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. so that's where i've mainly been. All of this has brought me to the realization that computer gaming just isn't for me because of the constant upgrades. The games should be more specific tho. They just say Geforce 2 video card but not what version. But no worries. I like being a console gamer. especially with the abilities on today's consoles to play online.

i'm up to chapter 5 on my story. it's coming along well. i can't wait to finish it.

Karina went and sent some things to me which made me feel like shit. when certain people send me things i feel horrible because i don't want people to spend their money on me. she sent me a brave heart lion, some care bear playing cards and a lighthouse. i would go on and type what i sent her but i dunno if she'd see this before she got it. so we'll see how that goes.

Hope everyone had a Happy Yule and hope everyone has a Happy Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Kwanza, and whatever you celebrate.

posted@7:47 AM by:Agent J:

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Linux, Milk, and Tons of Unfortunate Events.

welp where have i been? well i been around. i been workin on my story. i'm on chapter 4 at the moment.

i went ahead and played my series of unfortunate events game. actually i beat it all in 1 night then went back through the world map and got the puzzle pieces and unlocked everything. even tho i beat it, it's one of those games for me that i can play over and over again. i'm gunna try it again to see how long it takes me to unlock everything. to be honest i just like exploring the worlds.

i killed my back the other day by working. my grandfather got some limestone to fill in ma's driveway for her christmas present and i did some labor. it was just him and i working and he could hardly work because he couldn't breathe so i ended up doing it which i didn't mind because i needed to workout and havent in while. i tried to be a slacker about it and see if i could find an easier way which turned out to be the hard way. story of my life. i shoveled load after load into a garbage can and then packed it over to an empty spot and scattered it then raked it. it would have just been easier shoveling and tossing. i made some money doing that which i didn't want.
money is the last thing i want right now. i guess right now i just want someone to listen to me.

anyways, went to walmart last night which was a waste. the place was horridly crowded and on top of that they were all out of Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. on the way back i had an epiphany and yelled at ma to stop at leslies which for those of u that don't know is a little grocery store. i ran in and got me a mug root beer and then went over to the counter and was looking around beside of it and got ma this big wrinkly dog with a santa hat for christmas and one of those huge cards. i think i'll just split the money and give it to everyone for christmas. y be selfish about it? problem is, my family is weird about money and everyone is willing to give but not take.

At the moment i'm working on downloading the 2nd disk of Slackware Linux. i have Mandrake Linux but i wanted to try this one out. not that i didn't actually like Mandrake but i kept getting my stuff deleted for no reason whatsoever and on top of that there were a lot of glitches. maybe i just got a bad copy of it. right now the second disk of Slackware is 91% done. just an estimated hour and 33 minutes left.

welp i'm gone right now. i need to start working on my story again so i'll write soon if anyone actually reads this.

posted@1:40 PM by:Agent J:

Monday, December 13, 2004

funny thing

whilst reading my news i found that there was a link to the following. i think it's funny. commentary after.

What the Goddess Cannot Do

1. She cannot provide a conclusion to human history.

Many non-Christians see the idea of Jesus’ return as horrible. “Our Goddess isn’t some spiteful deity that is one day going to wipe away Her creation,” they sneer. “She loves us enough to let us make our own choices.” That is a statement couched in emotion that hides the truth of the situation.

Jesus puts a limit on evil. He will not let war, sickness, sadness, and death reign forever. He has a plan for human history. No matter what happens, however horrible, He is in control, and He has not left it totally in our hands

alright, here's my thoughts. i have never heard anyone talk about the actual christian faith (not fundemetalist fantasy world) in that way. the way i see it if Jesus exists then i'll be happy for the one's that get to go to heaven and obviously i'll be sent to hell with all the people that write this stuff. but of course i don't believe in a hell so i can't say it will happen. i mean the people that ran the site in which i got this off of r supposedly "ex witches". first mistake was them saying that wicca is witchcraft. now in my research i've read that it's what wicca means but in other places it says it doesn't mean that. i will say this. paganism/neo-paganism and all other alternative religions is just that. religion. witchcraft is witchcraft on the other hand in which people can ingage in if they feel. i've said it many times. i mean these people have bad info. they said that D&D was a tool lmao.

the thing that made me forget how disgusted i was, was the fact that it said No matter what happens, however horrible, He is in control, and He has not left it totally in our hands. How i found that funny was the part about he's in control now matter what happens or how horrible. u'd figure there'd be some compassion. these people want future history which can't really be promised on any end. it seems it's the only thing they care about (that and keeping up appearences) the other thing that was funny was: He is in control, and He has not left it totally in our hands. Now this might sound mean, but i don't care. it seems as if ur looking for handouts. like things r just supposed to be easy for u. i've never taken the easy way out. i mean, u have the power urself to do things. don't wait on someone to help out. if u wait the at times things can get worse. i've tried and ended up taking the easy way and making it the hardest thing i've ever done at that time. i thought christians would understand this more than anything else. wasen't it said that it wouldn't be easy? he has not left it totally in ur hands u say. if u believe that then ur half-assing it. well ur not half-ass on the subject of condemning everyone else. u think it's hard being a christian? believe me, it's harder for me not to be one because of the fundementalists. i dont actually like to talk about how i believe (meaning exacty how i think religiously. like what happens after u die and such) with people unless i know them well. because after discussing it i would get this horrible look. so i havent exactly said what i believe religious wise (except for the few that know me well) but i will say this (this will piss most off) i have morals. not the "majority" morals. without religion getting in the way i'll say this, I believe in loving ur fellow human and actually any other living thing and even non living. i believe in never forgetting the past but never letting it get in ur way (just realised this not too long ago). i believe it charity and being calm about things. damn it i believe in rights to have beliefs no matter what they r and i believe in having opinions. so do i hate people with the belief that because i'm not with the majority, i'm bad? no. i don't even hate people for not getting their facts straight about everything. i voice my opinion because of that. people this is a half ass world. do more research on things and don't look only in places that have ur point of view. i may have the links listed on my site very liberal but i also look other places. i read essays on the young republicans page, i go over to that extremist website of the ultimate warrior (who, tho says people such as myself should lay down on train tracks and wait for the train, i still respect him in some way), i even look around on jerry falwell's website from time to time (tho he may hate me and not even know me....just because i believe different). life is perspective. for once people take the washed out road with the animals and the sharp rocks. u may be suprised at what u've learned.

posted@4:15 PM by:Agent J:

Friday, December 10, 2004

The Office

PlayStation.com - News and Media - PlayStation Underground ah the office is on bbc america. i loved that show. welp nothing has been going on. got a few games but one of them i have to wait christmas. i got Spawn: Armageddon and i finally found a copy of A Series of Unfortunate Events for ps2. we went all over Charleston to find it. we went to this place called Gamestop and found it. brand new factory sealed for $40 which is definatly lower than what i would have found it at. next month when punisher comes out, i'll be going there. i can't wait. big time interigation mode. also went to wildflowers to get a few things. a tarot cloth and some insense. i got one for meditations, dreams, and healing. they changed the store around again. actually found it easier to manouver around in now. they got some new jewelry and i saw this chrystal ball that i adored. a lot of philosophy books too. if only i had enough money.

put some ink in my printer last night......horrible mess. after getting that worked out i went and got paper jams. damn electronics. i will say that yesterday wasen't such a good day. i found out that i could have gone on and took my ged and passed first try but that fucking fundementalist christian teacher of mine said i would fail and that i couldn't take it. the whole time the woman lied to me. i took the pretest first time and i had to get an average of 450 and i got a 510.......i'm still seething over this. hell most of the time she just preached to me about how homosexuality is bad then expected me to have the same belief then went on to talk about how black people r bad which i also disagreed with. if she found out how i believed religious wise i would have been thrown up on a cross. welp i'm gone for now. farewell.

posted@1:58 AM by:Agent J:

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Blower's Daughter

Welcome to Jeremy's Site

well, it's 2 a.m. and i'm almost ready to go to sleep. i been working on the site. finally got a forum up and running along with a guestbook and counter for no apparent reason. i added news to the front page and then i added a wallpaper, 3 aim icons, and 1 msn icon. it's almost ready. i have everything up and running except for the picture page which i'm trying to get going now. bad thing is that i don't have that many good pics to post. mostly just me goofin' around. i thought that maybe i should post my art but to be honest deviantart already burned me out on that. so eh. well nothing to write about tonight. OH YEA! finally found that awsome song from the movie "Closer". It's called "the blowers daughter" by damien rice. awsome song. anyhow i'm going to get ready for sleep. farewell.

posted@2:06 AM by:Agent J:

Thursday, December 02, 2004

writing...yay

Witches' Voice - 02 December, 2004 - 1:08:54 AM

hey people. i'll make this short. i haven't been doing much and what i have been doing is probably useless. i'm writing a story. yay. so far i just got passed chapter 3. sat on my ass today without anything going on and tried to think of where it's going and then figured that i shouldn't worry about it and just keep writing till i feel it's finished. it's about a guy that falls for this girl and misses his chance then decides he doesn't really care and just makes a chance. eh we'll see what happens with it. eh i think i'm gunna go now. maybe start on it again. farewell.

posted@1:20 AM by:Agent J: